Antonio

I managed to get out of pornography and hentai after ten years of addiction.

So this is me: a guy who has four years free of that plague, and who wants to tell his story to help others.

I started, like many, very young, at the age of ten and out of simple curiosity. I simply took my phone, searched for “naked women” on the internet and plunged into a world that, up to that point, was totally unknown to me.

At first it was something that, logically, I tried to hide. And, in fact, while I was in elementary school, that's what I did. I tried to tell some classmates about it but, to my surprise, they all found it very strange.

It wasn't until I finished first grade and started high school that my hidden vice became a source of pride.

I used to go to a Presbyterian school and maybe that's why no one there knew about it.

But as soon as I started public high school things changed. There each and every one of my friends knew about pornography and watched it regularly, some even more than me (which was surprising considering that I did it daily).

I brought some people down, who I know still ten years later struggle to quit.

And still others brought me down even more.

I remember discovering that, in addition to pornography, there was hentai. Something even more addictive and perverse. I got to know it through a girl, with whom I had a “relationship” and with whom I talked stupid things on a regular basis. She passed me several videos and there I went completely under.

It never meant a social disorder, or an inability to relate, but I was definitely changed.

I knew and saw all possible genres.

And I understood the perverse plan of those who produce this content. Animation is much more shocking than real life, it has no limits, it's all made to exploit your senses, it's a more immersive medium.

The girls are completely idealized and it totally dissociates you from reality.

It took me five years with that obsession, until the day I decided to quit.

At the beginning, it was actually not that difficult, I had some relapses but I was able to overcome my addiction relatively quickly, thank God.

Even so, I know of friends who still struggle with it every day.

It's a horrible vice, if you're not in yet, stay away, you'll have a hard time getting out.

And if you are in, pray hard to God and fight with all your might to stay away from it.